frustration

I am REALLY looking forward to that day in the far distant future when I feel comfortable teaching a yoga class. I am sick of getting so nervous that I stumble over my words, can’t remember the tune of the chant that I begin class with, silently berate myself all the way through class for not knowing what I’m doing.

It has been a long time since I’ve done something this… different. And challenging for me. Unfortunately, at this point I’m only getting tapped to sub about once a month, so I’m not getting enough experience to become more comfortable with it.

I wrote a few months ago about feeding the mind either garbage or gourmet. I’ve been feeding myself a lot of garbage lately, and I think it’s more apparent when I’m teaching because, as I observed when I first started teaching, this part of my practice keeps me honest. I can’t hide when I’m up there. I can’t go on autopilot, because I’m just not good enough at this yet. I have to be there.

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One Response

  1. Hmmm… maybe if you think you CAN do it, you will get more opportunities to do it.

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