"…resolved to being born and so resigned to bravery…"

Last night, I taught my sample class at Jai Ma. I’d been fretting about it earlier in the week; worrying if I was ready, if I’d planned a long enough sequence, if I’d stumble over my words to the point of distraction. By Tuesday afternoon a sort of calm of resignation fell over me. If I wasn’t ready, I was never going to be. I’d done as much preparation as I could do, and I needed to let go of expectation and just let it flow.

There were a few improvements I could have made to the class – holding postures longer, a bit more explanation on gross alignment in some postures, giving more options for modifications in challenging postures; but on the balance, the class went very well. I was calm; my sequence was well received; I didn’t fumble (much) with wording; I gave a lot of touch corrections and was comfortable doing so. Most importantly, perhaps, I enjoyed the process. I enjoyed planning out a sequence, and I enjoyed watching it unfold in front of me.

It is a relief to have this done. I had felt it hanging over my head since June, when I finished my teacher training; but what with international travels, a slight case of yoga burnout, and struggles with self doubt, I kept putting it off for the past two months. Now I can begin substitute teaching at Jai Ma. And paying back the debt of gratitude I owe the yoga community for keeping me (relatively) sane over the past six years.

ADDENDUM: It struck me this afternoon that my audition at Jai Ma was hands down the best job interview I’ve ever gone on! I got to wear shorts and I didn’t have to make up a pack of lies about where I see myself in five years.

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One Response

  1. YO – GA!Good for you…

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